slenes * yume

Emotion hurted ~

nothings showing outside
somethings hurting inside
easy to deceive
hard to conceive

my best friend's gf juz left him...he tried to keep himself away from looking sad but i know its killing him on the inside...why would pauline said this kinda stuff...futari no future ni mieinai...damm if my gf said this i would be so totally dead *ur strong enough to survive this*

upon seeing them for like near 2 years le , the last was the meeting for his b.day , together they went to see jay's concert , fcking sweet , i envy them but that envy ended 2 days back where we went to buy b.day gift for jj 1 of the old gang...

but sux the atmosphere wif him juz isnt correct, it used to be him toking and me listening and editing his jokes but now no, tats not the case, i had to go all out and joke , made him happie and stopped worrying...

all these attempts are futile cuz at 1 point i wanted to buy 2 shoelaces and make a friendship band for him ( learnt from mr steven !!! ) but dude, he said pauline used to make this for me , that very moment i know i am screwed, the worst part is everything that i am trying to do help him remember his gf...

then we somehow ended up in cineleisure...it juz sux cuz we kinda traveled the whole of orchard xD...we went to saw Rule No.1 , speaking of which now like seldom go out wif poly mates since i met this girl...

will try to find time as my LULL period is gonna end soon and i juz recovered from a god damm leg injury and still recovering from a fever, its combo man...sore throat, flu, cough == fever == gg

i am those kind who wun get sick easily but when i got sick its SICK...i went for a 30 minutes hot sun jog...it helped everytime to get rid of the fever and "weak"

pictures fade
memories stayed
*for me*
memories fade
pictures stayed
*sir poh's memory card got problem luckily his got a working hardisk who help contain his memories*

*if i got a wish machine*
i hereby wish that my best friend + his gf will make up & hopefully haf a GREAT future together , a FUTURE that i will be envy of !!!

i am bad at consoling ppl , maybe i should go give it a try...DEFINATELY NOT MY RECRUITS

Some Random Thoughts & FAQ

why i wanna become an officer ?
to changed ppl's life

how to drive passion ?
when u find meaning in wat ya doing

how to measure money ?
power, responsiblity ( how much u hold ) + ur expertise
*imagine* a air-con repair-er will not nid to repair air-con if every fcking 1 of us knows how to repair the air-con ourselves, his expertise is worth ZERO...

how to love ?
when ur young, u fall in love

how to change ?
dude tats a hard 1...lemme think...u nid to accept, view things from different perspective, haf confidence in 1self, onli then change can take place

do u like the girl ?
Even though I love you (i cant help thinking about if i'd be better without you)
if we stay together (it could get worse, then again, maybe it could get better)
*i cant help thinking this way, sorry but i am screwed*

now i realli hope my girl will keep me dreaming when i am awake
aahhhh, i wanna blind u then bind u wif me *evil smile*

i didnt think i did miss u this much, i should be more committed in this
i really should b4 i screwed some1's feeling

- By Nerdy @ 12:20 PM