puzzled ><


well well , maybe juz blog b4 i go booking & handle those bmt recruits -.-

today what gave me a shock is when i saw juan's new hairstyle , super shocking man !!! @.@

this coming dec , will be going to china wif family haha...christmas nite then will be back, perhaps some1 will jio me go countdown ?

the recruits are like part of my life...we are around the same age group...juz that i am a little more educated, higher rank, more senior experience than them...

in the end i am their instructor , mentor, friend, teacher...but i treat them more than trainees...is that a mistake ? i start to doubt myself...its complicated...all that i did, it was well meant, i promise this to u...my recruits


without a girlfriend for 7 months already...am i lacking some1 who cares for me other than my family member...i have been a kinda like loner for months...doesnt really reveal my inner self, true that i can be loud but thats a totally different personality...am i trapped too deep too long ?

should i go look for a new partner despite some of the aftermath which nearly raped my soul out of me ? maybe i am too loyal, devoted, native, direct ?

my ex got married in PH juz b4 i commission, juz becoz i decided to be mean and made her went back to PH as she finished studying here in SG...i aint whinning, okie shit i am but i juz hate fate/destiny for letting me met her, being together so in the end let me chose to let her leave...

theres this conflicting shit in my mind...should i be alone or go look for a partner to spend the rest of our lives together ?

i kinda decided to go easy on this, while pursue-ing my freedom, if my future "partner" cross my path, i will stay and decide wif my partner which path we wanna go...

let fate decide my destiny...love sir poh and this is what the recruits called me >< , kinda getting on my nerve...haha, next batch make sure they call me sir Aaron , sounds better eh =D


- By Nerdy @ 6:23 PM