problem wif me

since sec sch, i have been very honest, direct, straight forward

thus i have good friends who stay wif me and some "enemies"

when i came to army, its the same thing over again

i dun like to put on a fake face, singing praises where u know it isnt the truth
in army, we need to be more tactful which means wayang to me and that isnt me

if being an officer needs to wayang then i guess it doesnt suit me after all

in this platoon i got feedbacks for me to be more tactful, well i guess i can be harsh at times but i can juz being honest, if everybody were to put on the fake mask n sing praises even though u did badly, then u will never improve, u will never know wat u did is bad

lets be honest cuz i will be going to PRB, performance review board, becuz i did not perform good enough, i got a not bad score but due to my att C for a week i did not attend alot of stuff n thus my results are affected

i told u guys b4 , all my best friends went to Arti and this platoon some guys i dun really like so no choice...

if the board doesnt think i am good enough, i dont commission, its okie wif me, cuz they will lose a good officer, i believe i can do a good job, much more than some of them in this platoon.

so tml's PRB will determine all, either i commission or not...

problem wif me is that i dont want to wayang but it seems that army is mostly about wayang, tats why army life doesnt suit me...sometimes i am juz confuse, haha, not being wayang will put u into this kinda board PRB, i think its okie so no issue, guess the people around me is more nervous, lol

commission wif them wif my friends, they make this point very clear. some even say "i want to commission wif u" cuz maybe we haf come this far ,8 months...2 foreign country trips...

we will always be good friends even if we did not commission together =D


- By Nerdy @ 10:08 PM

confinement in camp...

look wat confinement has done to me, haiz

the first week i was quite okie when i got confined and going to the HQ to report every 2 hours on weekend, cuz my buddy left me a DS for me to play

the second week, i got MC so i will skip tat part

third week which is this week, thursday, friday, sat and today sunday, i need to report every 2 hours to the HQ. 4 straight days man, zzz, addition of that due to me still silver in IPPT, i need to attend PT lesson which kinda is killing me, haizzz

i surf the net till i got bored
i ate the food till i got bored

so in between the interval report timing, i would sleep

so there, i slept and i missed the 3pm PT session

i went to report to HQ then later report to my PC who is in charge
i told him i overslept and was sorry for that as i missed the session
he replied "shit u"

ok now, i know my performance isnt very good and isnt very bad, PRB is coming next week, lol

will my name appear there or even appear at the ACPC where they represent u the sword...

will i even commission...

i know i can do a good job when i become 2LT , be it instructional or command, i juz dun wanna go staff tour becuz its meaningless man, the 9 months of stuff and hardship that i have been through then go staff and start from zero ? no way...at least i wanna do something meaningful

hopefully next week i can book out, 17th i wanna watch movie and meet my sec sch friends, lol, been a long time man, OCs has eaten alot of my time...haiz

sometimes i just have this urge of meeting every1 i know, partly Attachment NCS friends, poly friends, sec sch friends, outside friends...

but they are all kinda busy and i oso lazy to plan, not alot of people actually plan for all these as they already got their own life[ bf , gf ] n stuff

alright tats all, oh and my friendster is almost filled , lol, all the people i know or actually all whom i tried to find, haha

kinda happy cuz if i am old, i looked back into my friendster, these are the ppl who had left foot prints in my life =D, serves as a memory...

oh and i drew a Rose, lol , my camera phone isnt wif me also >.< so i couldnt snap a shot and put it in my blog, haha, when i got a chance i will snap it n put it up here =D


- By Nerdy @ 4:11 PM

many of us didnt noticed that bond between friends can be so great

n thus ying shui si yuan which kinda means the water we consume everyday forgetting the origins of it

i for example is a gd example of this

i hafn't been going out wif my friends since OCS either from sec sch, poly, work
thats the 3 category of friends i got =D

see how OCS has affected that, okie no reason, sometimes i am juz too tired/lazy haizz
the friends that we make around this age will eventually be our friends for life
even in ten, twenty years i firmly believe these friendship will never end, the bond the trust we created during sch days.

however it seemed that we hafen been meeting each other wif our own busy life/schedule but once we meet up i believe we will still chat about anything and there will be no barrier

i will be commissioned in 8th sep, but somehow i dont realli looked forward to it, haha

the bond that i have with the buddies i have in the army, i couldnt felt it as some of them decided to drop it half-way, some chose a different path.

once i settle down on my new posting after i become 2LT, i will be easier to reach haha

sorry guys if i didnt attend any of the outing be it mahjong or going out...

somehow i feel like going to the zoo, lol, interested people plz contact me !!!
say the ZOO, dou bu zi, not sure whether thats correct or not, lol, long time since i used japanese, oh well, army...

lets shout ORD, lol >.<

and...

i am serious about the zoo, lol

LETS GO TO THE ZOOOOOO....


- By Nerdy @ 1:57 PM