its been a long time since i blog something , lol

well juz had a 1 1/2 day of rest, lol , felt so good...

however i am now in camp and many ppl didnt know that actually in OCS there is a comp in every room

for my pilot thingy, think muz wait until i finish this officer course then can go to Australia for air grading haizz... the medical done by the RSAF really sux , damm slow sia >.<

now i got no choice but to endure through this course

whenever i book in i feel a little depressed, while in BMT whenever i book in i actually look forward to it, lol

the 2 years i am in NS is a lot different from the 1 my friends are going through...the pay difference is 1 thing but the things u do are a lot very very different , Helicopter ride, river crossing, survival camp, navigation exercise, most of these activities are actually quite stressful on the body yet fun >.<

i learnt alot of stuff and below is my only motivation line

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Time is always moving, slowly but surely
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i am suffering, i wanna go out but some factors like the pilot thingy is stopping me and secretly i am dependant on that to keep my will here in order to survive here. A lot of the ppl here doesnt wanna be here yet for different reasons like pride, love ones, money, many other more, they stay on


indeed i feel that i have change a lot , mentally, physically...a lot i can even feel the change, there are only 2 things in NS for me , 1 is BMT , the other is OCS , i have changed a lot since OCS from BMT

for my mum i would fight , fight for singapore , not for singapore or anything else but for my mum i would...

so far i am getting happier here but when depression sets in, its the other way round

in 2 weeks time i will go off to brunei for survival camp and tons of walking finding check points >.<

after brunei should be CSB , where we train up our combat fitness

after CSB , is Taiwan, where we get to train how is it like to be in a real war

i kinda feel like i am drifting further away from the sociality, its pretty sad consider i only browse channelnewsasia so that i can still "follow" up on wats happening in the world...

i juz wish the 1 year 4 months pass fast >.<


- By Nerdy @ 6:51 PM