i cant imagine ppl can actually tahan the 3 weeks confinement in OCS , lol

for me , i cant take it already, maybe cuz i got no friend in there in the first 3-4 days cuz everything is so fast paced >.<

due to CAT 1 a lot of activities are cancelled , its no doubt tough in here , i didnt sleep well on the first 3 days n its physically stress for me due to the lack of rest and the mental stress which builds up due to a lot of reasons

a lot of 'new' things i nv expect myself to be doing , i cant list the 'new' things cuz its a rule in SAF tat i cant blog the exact details of what we do in OCS o.0

well well but i somehow managed to overcome them , lol and a lot of many stuff , i make some friends here n managed to sleep at the 4th night , lol

called some friends to seek advise n maybe to actually let it all out , i nearly got despressions , i know tats weak of me , haix

well we can book out every week due to the holidays >< n thx to the PH , our schedule are damm packed , here in OCS , its a test of knowledge and capablities

we got like written test , not like BMT , only physical test , lol

oh well officer eh , lol

i still cant decide whether i should be commission-ed first or b4 commission then apply for pilot course >.<

if i stay , i might haf a chance to OOC which means i cant apply anymore
if i go in n i fail air grading , i will be re-posted n stay for the rest of my service term =D

how sia , haizzzz


- By Nerdy @ 6:35 PM

bleh i got into ocs , lol

tough life , ah zu said 2 xiong companies are waiting for u guys >.<

erm gimme 5 seconds
5,4,3,2,1

okie , i am mentally prepared to get tekan , lol

tml gonna go out n get some fresh air , lala
been sick , yea sick ==> flu n sore throat

mayeb cuz of those potatoe chips & maybe some ice cream , lol
its killing me

now now i am a step closer to becoming a pilot , gd luck man =D

and of cos i remember u lah zhi chong , lol , man how could i possible forget some1 i already know unless i should to but in this case no =D , which is a gd thing isnt it

juz tat nsf hasnt realli got time for gatehring n stuff , cuz nsf normally wanna juz lie down n basically do nothing n no more falling in or heads out all this kinda crap , juz me , myself n my bed >.<

3 weeks confinement is waiting for me , lol , man lets jzu say cya guys in 1 month's time , haha


i came for ur heart and u took away mine
burnt to ash , friend to stranger
voice become whisper n faded away
all tats left is silent

all the lust has become dust
blown to bits into some pit
leave tat guy alone
let his wounds rot
let his anger run hot
tats all he got

hoping the angel sings
u will always be under my wing
guiding u , loving u , caring for u

the guy looks at the angel
mistook it for some girl
n in turn fallen for her

having hope for a new place to cover his wounds
hoping his wounds would be healed
nv to let history repeat itself

but hes so wrong
the 'angel' takes pity on him
not loving but treated him nicely juz cuz she pities him
boom , not wanting to hurt the guy ( sometimes it better to be straightforward )
giving the guy false hope

bleh boy boy ur this close to being dead
so close but hell no


# loveless
erm lets jzu say i dun understand wat i am saying oso , lol

summary ==> this guy has juz broken up / feeling damm sad , then some girl treat this guy a little better than others. this guy started to feel different , thinking tat maybe this girl is for him but boy is he wrong. this girl juz shower him wif care cuz she pity him , not meaning anything. when she realise this guy has special feeling for her , she didnt talk him so as not to kill him without noticing tat this hesitation is doing more harm to this guy than straight rejection. this guy realise tat shes only caring for him for another reason, hes starting to calm down , yup , if he continues on , he might damage his very own confidence , last but not least his brain cells >.<

peace

conclusion
# sometimes its better to juz reject rather than giving excuse which might in turn give off false hope


!!! this above is juz a story i made up , ITS NOT MY OWN STORY , LOL , ITS NOT !!!
# so i am okie =D , thx to the ppl who showed me concern but i am a nsf , no stress no nothing , i am stress free #


- By Nerdy @ 1:06 AM

it would be so much easier if we never met

whenever i past by khatib mrt
there juz come bomb fly by n part of my brain will juz catch tat image n pop it up

the girl i liked in poly

there when the train stops there , even tou its only for like 10 seconds till it closes its door

it felt like minutes , my brain go blank n imagine u there sitting on the sofa watching tv dress-ed casually , all the small things we've done back when we r still studying...

even though we aint meant to be but hey its okie i mean i love u & i am gonna respect tat decision, no choice but to accept it ya :(

but hey if u asked me did i regret it , juz follow the first line

erm wait a moment , if u asked me now , i would say i didnt regret loving u
for tat short memory has made me stronger , stronger yet afraid for another relationship wif another girl

the feeling of not wanting tat feeling again
the short happiness tat u experience n tat shape pain which pierce ur heart
love is a chance isnt it , a double edge sword

it can kill u wif pain or bring u a life time happiness wif some1 who share the thing wif u & tat thing is call-ed 'Mutual love'


lately been refusing ppl to meet up for gathering , lol
sry guys , been poor , yeah real poor

tats y i try not to go out , lol
so tats y ima here blogging =D

chatting , tv , movies ( downloaded ones of cos , lol ) has been my best friends since erm sunday haha

snacks n of cos ICE CREAM are killing me !!!!

its holiday n yeah lets rock

oh yea was chatting wif melody & i figured if i ever has to join this party which requires u to haf 1 opposite sex in order to go ( its a must !!! )

who will actually go wif me , lol , WHO WILL GO WIF ME !!!!!!
i am afraid of being reject but tats wat i often get , poor me

i have asked all my female friends n None want to go wif me
guess what ==> the above will kill me , IT WILL , lol


guess tats all man , haha , btw this blog is for when i grow old cuz my memory sux big time , i can come back n hey i look-ed like this when i was young , lol n all those crazy things i did back >< ( man i sounded like some old man )

so if u guys enjoyed reading my random thoughts n things about my life , try to come back , but after my block leave ends tats it , lol , another isolation time for this blog

enjoy !!!!!!! ( while u still can )


- By Nerdy @ 2:57 PM

hey bah , lol , this site isnt dead yet ><

its been like months man
well lets see where should i start , lol

okie now i am a private which means i am no longer a recruit xD
for now i am waiting for my posting, meaning maybe i will go command school , maybe i will go into a unit ( hopefully not , i might rot n die there )

i am gotten very fit now , lol , compared to the days when i was in poly or even sec sch

oh yea whenever i go out wif friends ( poly friends ) , they will always say i become darker liaoz >.< , dunno whether its a gd thing or bad 1 , haha , especially ying , always , ALWAYS say i become ' hei ' liaoz

they said tat NS is a mile stone for men and i believe tats true , lol , i noticed i haf changed , a lot actually , more mature , less lazy ? haha , responsible & a whole lot more in order to become a real men , haha

wait wait lets define a men , lol
Dictionary.com says :
A male human endowed with qualities, such as strength, considered characteristic of manhood


which is liek wtf ? keke

well to me Men is
slenes say :
able to take care of ppl around him ( love ones ) , responsible in watever thingy he do

oh well wadever , haha

for now i am hoping to go into OCS to become an officer then take up pilot course , hopefully i can get in n then * cross fingers * pass the Air grading thingy , if nothing went wrong , i will sign on to the Airforce to become a pilot

tats my current plan

alt plan is
if i go sispec , try to crossover to OCS then continue on plan , lol
i hope i dont go to unit , i rather will rot in there

if not alt plan is
finished sispec n complete my 2 yrs , go out get a job or maybe study more ? haha


so conclusion , 15th dec is the day

lets juz hope i go into OCS , lol


lets say while i am in mainland , ask me out okie ? lol
but i might get book-ed by others ><

while blogging this , a little bit of my heart is saying
* i wanna go back to sec sch n find my first love *

oh well , oh before i forgot juz to remind myself , the rainbow in tekong is perfect , even without a waterfall nearby , its amazing


- By Nerdy @ 2:46 PM