sometimes i can say i lead a lonely life...yes true enough

if u ask me hey dont u feel anything ?
i can only said tat i am used to it man
going home alone since primary 1 , getting food from the cooker whenever lunch has arrived...

managing urself , playing at the play grounds wif strangers around the same age
having to handle the stress of having answered questions like , where is ur father n stuff liek that u know

lol , i can tell u , i am mature then most of the ppl i know , well not many ppl i know but oh well , lol , mature enough

i think differently from ppl , some of my last classmates said they wanan earn $10k a month , i like was dude are u serious , so much money for wat

for me , i only wanna have enough salary , enjoy the stuff i do n at the same time earn a living out of it , haf a nice family n tats it , i can die , lol

sometimes i felt that i can live alone without making use of my friend's help, sometimes i cant , i dunno

********************************************************************************

theres some1 whose caring for me right now, yes but fuck myself for thinking of other ppl which i am suppose to forget , fuck this shit , i dunno , i am
truthful but some part of me juz wanna keep the memories wif u , its like a nightmare haunting u bringing u flashback of ur life.

and its not u, i already forgotten that matter, lol, since it was so clear... its others stuff

nowadays i begin to doubt the "brothers" of my life , they would suggest something then when their girl friend bring up soemthing , they go along wif it n neglect us "brothers" , lol

i dunno what to say man, these years of friendship , ya given in for a women ?

maybe i should scold myself first actually , i dont even know their birthdays , holy crap , lol , aaa sometimes i hate myself for not taking care of stuff liek these...


- By Nerdy @ 12:47 AM