ppl seriously nid to be more direct, pls pls pls , lol

well some ppl chat wif me , i thought they were like so nice as to chat wif me but in the end => my feelings tell me that they were juz after something

lets juz take guan wei , my primary sch friend , he chat wif me then in the end he asked do u know others de results

then i was like , so u spent 8 minutes chatting time wif me , actually u only wanna know their results ? is that so ?

tats why i dun like ppl wif good grades, they wanna compare , compit, oh well , not my style man

i aint gonna tell other ppl my results except my brother dave , lol
in fact i told him yesterday

if u wanna know my results , JUST ASK , no nid to go beat around the bush

ah wadever , i will juz end it here


- By Nerdy @ 3:17 PM

i am not as strong as ppl think
i am just pretending
i really juz want to be saved
but i dont tell anyone and juz manage by myself
and for some reason ppl rely on me
so i kind of juz go along wif it

i had no choice but do be this way
but i really wanted to depend on someone too


well the above is taken from shinigami no ballad 3
there goes ur copy right XD

its a very touching anime man, well i found it true, indeed very true

memories keep coming back, i remember my leader saying, i cant relying on anyone, yes i know that, even tou ur trying ur best...
oh well i realli dun wanna elaborate it anymore le, sorry

aaaa the season's calling, lol, results will be out soon, on tuesday, i juz hope ppl will not ask me for my results, i wun either unless u guys asked me, maybe i should keep myself offline ,lol giving there no place to trade info , lol

ok i guess, more n more ppl are getting internet , even kids aged 12 ? 10 ?
surprisingly they know how to use the net ,lol , can u believe it but they kinda sux in the game so oh well there goes the pros , lets welcome the noobs

lets juz say bloggers has the right to write down their opinuion, ah dunno how to spell. ppl nid a place to escape their stress, reality, so oh well, or lets juz say this , dun voice out something which will affect the country ?

oh well wadever...laws are making ppl sick of living, cant even chew gums in this country, lame crap, thx to those "act cool" ppl who chew their gum n spit it like their father own those grounds, damm it, becoz of ur actions, the government ban the sale of gums here...man this sux

and yaya lets hope for world peace, like i care...


- By Nerdy @ 6:28 PM

u are cute when you laugh
u are cute when you are wrong and dun wanna admit

but all of these cuteness i cant contain inside my heart

admitting that makes it even worst



anyway u guys should watch shinigami no ballad , its like so nice hm how to say , its kinda like a love story wif a theme in it , i loved the first episode A LOT !!!

juz finished watchin the second episode , so sad yet after watching it kinda get a sort of feeling i dunno how to say man , maybe its the strength that love give , lol

i feel like going into a relationship again , hoping this time it wun hurt again...
sure i got lots of negative shit going on within me but sure i do have some good points eh , or dun haf any , lol

oh well , think i aint going to the chalet, hey it not escaping reality ok...i already accepted it , i juz dun wanna go n face some of them , somemore i feel like i got nothing to do there, wat can i do , i dun feel like cracking any more fake jokes again...

gw got what he wanted , marcus too , nai cheng too , the others too , why decide to fake again , why decide to fake again !!!!

might as well not go , its full of fakies , i dun wanna leave anymore pleasant or unpleasant memories to u guys anymore , if he go then i dun go , i will take notice of these words , ya i know , i know i know...

i will juz go drink wif dave someday to sort of like make it up for not going to the chalet , lol , hey its a chalet only wat , wats the deal man...

hope nobody asked me yet, so far only 3 ppl asked me but i keep quiet , lol , switching to other topics, 1-2 didnt realised it yet tou , hope nobody will notice slenes is missing , haha


- By Nerdy @ 9:14 PM

any1 missing me in here ? lol , ok no...

its kinda boring yet sad for a guy to do housework , chores , readin books , for goodness , i have never done these in such a long time man

the last time is during secondary school days where i would clean the toilet to earn some $$$ from my mum , lol

oh well , man , juz feel like an auntie , lol , borrowing books on how to cook , can u believe tat ? slenes is trying to cook out some shit , zzzz , then in the end slenes has to end the shit by shallowing it , kinda sad , lol


anyway should i go back to the entrance
once back it will be very weird situation , yes it is
its about the bio class chalet man

1: go = weird situation , i might juz ruin the wrong thing
2: dont go = i let all my bro down , lol , specially dave, marcus
3: on the other hand , maybe it will be boring but who knows cuz we didnt party b4 yet , u will never know
4: i find it hard to talk to the other girls except for cheryl , yes i find it hard coz i already decided to not interact wif them anymore u know wat i mean
5: after the exam , i truely knows who are my friends ,who are not , so now i am realli sorry what i did to my old class dude , lol , they are the best man , they rock , bio class only cares about results so fuck this shit
6 : i realli dun feel like going , realli tou i dun nid to plan or anything lidat
7 : maybe i wanna got for the sake of going , afterall i been rotting at my bloody home
8 : when theres dave , theres beer , lol , i scare i will drink a lot then bomb fucking gone , all my complains will appear , i realli dun want that
9 : if i go confirm will tio them say again , even tou we make the relationshi very clear
10 : fucking dont go


guess its the end , i dun wanna turn back to the entrance , nah , i dont sorry

i am trying to recover the little happiness
i am trying to forget the distanced love
i am trying to live the current situation
i am trying to escape the unreal reality
i am trying to finish the unwanted business
i am trying to pursuit my fucking dreams
i am trying to improve my family relationship
i am trying to recall those days with u
the images of my friends are bcoming blur-er
maybe 1 day if i ever see ya, i might not recongonise


when something is broken
its hard to fix it
wats lost can hardly be found
those gone will never be back
its time to let go
time to finish off


- By Nerdy @ 12:27 AM

suddenly aint got the mood to blog, but after seeing only 7 ppl still visiting my blog , lol , i still feel tat my friends are still there to find out how i am living my life eh , lol


even after graduate or maybe boredness , lol oh well , i think i flunk my exams , when the results are out i will post it here , lol to see what the bio class has turn me into

either more nerd or slack as ever..well we will see , anyway theres a lot of misunderstanding over here , its about our class 1 of the girls , i cant tell u who but apprently she thought the deleting of her contact by me ( sorry about that ) made her feel tat the group of girls in bio class influcenced me to delete her , hey tats not true , sorry sorry i dunno the deleting of contacts can get this serious.

oh well anyway i am living like a slacker now , lol , somehow i like the way i live n somehow i hate it , ok then let me tell u guys a story

there once lived 2 foxs , 1 living in the wild , the other in a cage
the fox living in the wild has freedom but has to worry about his survival
the fox living in the cage has food but he leaks freedom
1 day both of them agreed to change places

in the end both foxes die

so the morale of the story is , try to live within ur own happiness , dun worry about the others , what others had doesnt mean it will suit u well enough
so be urself n be glad tat u are actually very happy without other extra stuff ya know , haha

well thx to the 7 ppl n i doubt i will be present at the chalet my bio class is going to haf since i have already decide to let it go, dun blame me ok ?
for the guys , we still play games together but u know my situation so dun blame me either for being such a cold sport


maybe i will be there 1 nite we will see how , lets roller blade , lol , its been a while since i do tat wif friends , its been a while....

alright then hope u viewers out there have a great life ok , haha =D
next time we can go dine together in some special places wif my old class dudes , this time round i can make it =D , IF i dun haf any dates , i hope i dun haf , if i haf i will consider ditching them ,lol cuz its been a while i guess

3 more months to NS , holy $$$$ , lol , i guess i will have to follow my destiny , for now i will juz slack like an $$$hole

take care guys


- By Nerdy @ 12:38 AM