its been a while eh , lol , well right now my bro and my lao ma are having a deep tok , oh well this kinda tok is good once in a long while , its some sort of liek an update to their own life , been thinking that IF i ever become a parent , i will try to follow the traits of my mum and of cos improve it to my style , hey this isnt copying IT assignments ,lol

oh well , isnt this the same , some1 has to set the example , oh well anyway, i wonder why i didnt blog often nowadays , maybe cause i have been busy , christmas n stuff , lol , i shouldnt tok about how i pass christmas n stuff, its now tats important isnt it. ok lets see, well right now all i am concern most is my studies , the same actually , i care about my team's grade , myself rather isnt very important , i dun care about myself , well being kind sure has its own bad or good , i dunno man , i always do stuff for my friends , yeah i know sometimes they lend me their assignments , mayeb tats the way they re-pay me eh ? lol

some ppl realli gam wif me , some juz isnt , dun ask y , i dunno , ask ur feeling...i am juz feeling a little better, lol , hearing a song from the Anime Blood+ , its called => aozora no namida , got time go listen or ask me to send u haha, its been long since i laugh wif my true feelings but its not when i am in class but tis outside in henry's house , lol

i guess i created a betetr bond wif yj , gw , henry , hey thx man , thx to this 3 guys tat i finally finished my ORF assignment but i was late for 1 day but who cares , i did finished it by christmas eva , oh well , lol


- By Nerdy @ 1:01 AM

well i realli wish we can sit down and talk..but i guess its impossible given the current situation, this week gonna be a busy week , then after this we are gonna have a 1 week break

so the more impossible its gonna be to talk , lol, cant be helped i guess. i am trying realli hard to feel like its nothing , maybe that will make me look more like a bad guy althought i aint any good, haha

now the more i think, the more confused i am , wad is it i wanna clear up ? wat will we become once we clean everything up ? it will probably turned out to be i am a lazy asshole trying to look cool ? haha , maybe tats wat we will derived

wadever its lost cant be made up since our bond is broken tat easily , lol , maybe i should juz sit down quietly and go wif the flow , well i made friend wif a guy marcus in my class who is so on n steady , lol, he asked me do u cycle ? i said yes , most of the time , then he said tml nite wanna cycle ? then i stun for a moment there , lol, i juz said lets do it...oh well hope we haf fun even thought we juz know each other...

tml nite we are going to cycle together , actually 3 of us , the other guy nai cheng who is very quiet in class and dun normally tok to us, he said on , lol , cool man , lets all do well in presentation and haf fun riding tml nite =D

oh and 1 more , i am afraid i might break down , lol , i have been hearing ppl saying my partner and i haf 1 leg , actualyl most of them do not know wat actually happen , so i cant blame them yet i need them to stop saying things like this, lol cause this will lead me to getting more involved , as u can see , i wanted to escape , i cant reallli face another rejection or something harsh lidat so its better to keep things going as it is now , everything is slow yet painful at times but i can still take it

i realli hate ppl who cant take jokes , but oh well , ppl , dun take things seriously , sometimes its better off relaxing a bit

and its week 7 now , lol , 9 more weeks to end of poly life, i wonder who will leave footprints onto my life after that. 9 more weeks...to end this miserable times, ya i know there are good times , but scars will always be seen instead of happiness which is the recovered wounds.

oh well wadever it is , i am still ok and leave ur names behind , if not juz keep ur comments to urself. hope u understand Sum1...i dun need anoymous reader


- By Nerdy @ 11:48 PM

well friday i went to a pub at clark quey , aa dunno how to spell but wadever , went for a drink and almost gg...

but i somehow managed to keep myself awake, i drink some stuff and boom almost good game for me but that last cup pour-ed by pam realli made me wanna die , lol , almost the full cup full of chivas, lucky got evonne help me , lol , she pour 1/4 of the water to her cup , thx man , ah bo i realli faint , viomit and do stuff i cant imagine i will do , hehe

actualyl i was thinking of not getting high at all n take little care of da mao , but hor lol sorry ar i gg first , evonne lor , so high , lol , whole nite chiong drinks wif me

i remember i sent 2 sms, 1 to shu hui , the other to my partner , in the end only 1 replied , lol , " u send to wrong person ah " oh well , haha

sometimes i juz hate myself who only do things he wanna do but afraid of doing and need some additional touch so that he will have the courage to do wat he wish to do , but in the end and the additional touch is strong alcohol...

actually i am ok 1 for the drinks , but after i went to the dance floor , lol , there , gg , after dance floor i game over , my body feel hot, i begin to feel like a loser who has lost his job and cant find a new job and there he is releasing his anger , deluding himself

after dance floor i went to a place nearby and begin to think, i thought of a lot of things and seeing the singapore river's water made me realli wanna viomit , saliva keep flowing out , lol , and i spilt at anywhere but myself, oh well , then i beginning to type out the sms and sent it out , after sending them my head is clear , but once inside the taxi going back home , i begin to feel the "want to viomit but know u cannot viomit de feeling"

thx ar da mao , lol , and sorry i have cause the other ppl so much trouble...


- By Nerdy @ 2:25 PM

i cant figure out girls , lol , sometimes , i know she hates me now, but why she still send me her practicals to study for tml's pract test, i wonder why seriously

lol , i stone for 15 mintues as to whether i should ask her why send me ur pract when u hate me seriously i dun understand...recently i feel better when i am alone

ur sense of smell has gone too far, i cant catch up
i used to see the shadow of u, but now empty
i tried to visualize u in my mind, i cant , i have lost the images to start with
i keep on searching, i am lost in the world of my own findings
thinking in future some1 will take good care of u makes me relief


sometimes i will lookup to the sky and questions will juz zoom into my brain , as for the answers i cant find any , lol , random conclusions are juz derived but normally my own wish will nv be realised. its tiring to always put on a good smile, weakness will only be shown normally when ya lonely, haha

but fear not, u can do it =D


- By Nerdy @ 11:57 PM

today i fall out wif a friend of mine, at first i didnt consider her to be a friend but as days goes by , seeing each other and telling each other our own problems , we or should i say i begin to treat her as a friend

but as days passby , projects ending , dueing , meeting deadlines , we begin to have disbutes...and finally today , i dun wan to talk to u anything other than work. actually i wanted to tell u this but u told me first , but my reason of telling u tis is different , ur reason might be i aint good enough to be ur friend , as simple as that , my reason , i guess i will have to keep it to myself...

i dunno whether i should be glad or wat , if its the first or 2nd week i will be dead cause ur the only friend i have in the class , but now its different , seems to me u dun get too well wif the project team , how u wish u can change team eh, oh well that isnt gonna happen...have to endure the remaining 10 weeks.

so i hereby anounce that we are not friends and i will respect ur decision, well then i hope all is cool for either side and to peace wif that...women are petty , dun trust their words even if they are convincing , never ever or ya regret it

doesnt mean to end it sad but oh well , listening to the song super mario will make u cheer up , dun be sad for me , i hope every1 out there haf fun and good luck to all the stuff ur gonna do in future cause most likely u wun remember little slenes , lol , after poly everything's gonna change, so chill wif it , friends come n goes , make sure u get that idea rite before u proceed


- By Nerdy @ 1:05 AM

it was realli nothing , lol , why does my romance matter to u guys anyway, weird , dont ever ask me about my romance ever again , its not like i got reject often , lol

yeah often is the word...its not often , seldom i guess for now, oh well, tats all , my body arch like every week cause lack of exercise , haha , every week we would of play some sports, this is the best part of my class, but now my class's gossip kinda sux , lol , they all saying me n my partner , oh well , maybe i should keep my mouth shut once and for all

maybe i should juz go with the flow instead of playing rebellious, yeah maybe i should do that. for the class ppl if u happen to see this which isnt gonna happen , pls stop saying me and celine pls pls pls , lol , its nothing really

we know each other before the class start tats why we are often together and stuff and shes the only girl i tok to...i cant possibly tok to shu hui can i ? that isnt right so pls quit this gossip , i aint gonna like it , and for those ppl who care about me , u guys doesnt nid to call me n stuff lidat , i have lost the ability to communciate and maybe i am kinda shy , i juz doesnt want to show everything to u guys , its bad for health, wearing a cap is good for health u should do that...it makes ppl less focus on ya =D

and i feel like quitting school , maybe i feel like quitting poly , comeon , poly is full of fake ppl , hell yeah it is , or should i say a 18 year old guy finally knows how to lie ? welcome to real life i guess... playing wif ppl's mask n stuff , few has shown their true appearance...ppl pushing responsiblity to others then blame each other afterwards...

and i realli hate malays, they dont gain respect from me to respect them, oh well , i cant write this here , i will tio sue , so oh well , i will quit here, pls have some sportsmanship when u guys are playing a game , wadever game it is , pls do have some sportsmanship , its true every1 wanna win , yes , but if u win wif sportsmanship, u will have all respect , even from me , yeah u do , if i lose , i will admit it, if i lose

sometimes i realli wonder do i sux in studies or i juz dont have the brains for it ? , coem on ,realli , some ppl score so well in studies but when it come to gaming , he sux like crap , lol, oh well , especially in a game call DOTA , comeon , it isnt realli that hard right ? if ur a noob juz call it and chill wif it , newb still dare to tok so much crap , online dota singaporean players realli cmi , must be those secondary sch kids , haiz , pls be more mature

and now i am 19 , lol , i always feel old then it comes to gaming , it kinda sux but oh well its a fact , haizzz , sad , we are getting older


- By Nerdy @ 5:07 PM

aaa juz woke up after hearing a sms, lol , its about the test !!!

i got 2 test tml so it kinda sux , lol , and i hafen realli studied them , my class very happening 1 , lol , every week play badminton n stuff

this week we play dodge ball , lol , damm tiring lor !!! muz jump aim , focus all those shit , hopefully saturday we can win something back and not be the first 1 to lose, haha

i am handling the little devil inside me pretty well, lol, i tried not to speak as much as possible to u , yup , tats my intention, keep on saying ur fat to remind me i cant be on good terms wif fat ppl , i am a racist / fatist afterall , u can sue me , lol , but writing about fatist isnt a crime i guess XD and i am not putting the person's name that i am writing here so shouldnt be a problem =D

u see the reason why slenes is still single is that hes lazy, has high expectations from / of his future girl, isnt very serious, oh well anyway heres some pictures from saturday , old gang meeting , the girl inside is my best friend's girlfriend haha , pretty isnt it =D , and hardly u can see old gang all present , 7 of us








i like this photo, haha =D


- By Nerdy @ 4:17 PM

after some time , i will change the music to a more emotional one =D

i am watching an anime i loved so much , its the first to ever make me drop tears while watching , lol , its call kimi ga nozume eien <= something lidat =D

well i try not to think so much , those useless stuff and i try not to be sad on my birthday ok ? haha which is erm 15 minutes later ? but oh well , i felt super super tired now , my eyes keep closing

but the reason why i didnt sleep is that i hafen realli finish my com skill which is to be hand in tml -_- , lol

and another reason is i cant leave my leader behind to do all the other stuff which she isnt suppose to do , the person in charge of the project report had the report but didnt send to our leader , so win liao , lol

guess later i will to go briefcase n find , maybe she didnt even upload there , haiz , wat a letdown , we hafen even start coding , lol , oh well , my partner = my leader , she realli should join shu hui they all , fuck this , cant they think of others ? even tou my partner not very slim , they oso cannot lidat ma XD

ok gg , gg = good game , it kinda mean ending =D

ok , cya gg


- By Nerdy @ 11:42 PM