its hard for me to fall in love again, lol

althought i am forgetting the past, but i notice somethings in my dreams , it keep poping up , lol, a girl whose always there for me yeah , lol

i know i cant fall for her , i juz know that , but somehow somehow bit by bit i am falling, but i should continue to keep it a secret till that 1 day i cant hold on to it , lol

starting of project , qi yea cynthia we are all always saying the things happening around us recently and they notice there is always that 1 person i will always complain about , lol and then they will begin to tease me n stuff , its this kinda comments that lead u to having an unique feeling when u see that person , haha

rumours sometimes tend to bring them together , qi yea is 1 i know , lol , remember that saturday when we OT together, yeah i will always remember NCS and those people who have leave traces of footprints in my heart.

whenever ya falling in luv there are always somethings there to stop u, or should i say , i always find soemthing to stop myself , lol , yup

its realli very bad when some1 make used of u and thus create this friendship , they doesnt wanna know u , they are juz making use of u somehow they give u the impression that ur a very good friend to them. hehe

oh well i guess i will still keep this little secret inside my heart , i am always silent cause i still like to be quiet and keeping a low profile , its this kinda attitude that makes me a little problematic , but oh well its juz keeping quiet so i dun realli care.

anyway i like thursday class , lol , looking forward to tml's lesson even though i will be having problem fidning some1 to eat wif , lol , cause ying they all will be ahving break at 1pm , mi at 12 haha, oh well, maybe i will go find ding yu or something , it juz sux being alone when it comes to eating , for other stuff its cool actually for me

i still wanna remind myself that its tough to keep the feeling within my little heart , but it will be regretful if i am gonna be honest to myself so wadever it is , i hope i am able to control myself and not let any1 learn that...i am falling , anyway its hard to fall in luv wif a girl who doesnt have good impression of u , when it gets long it will be a 1 sided luv , if the 1 sided luv delay-ed for a long time it will make that person become worried , becoming very supucious , aa dunno how to spell , lol , hua yi in chinese over the slightest thing , haha

ok now my mind is filled with memories, good ones =D , i know i might sound sick but pls tell me those words like we are not meant to be , we are impossible , we can only be friends , better friends than lovers , i muz see these words then i will give up or maybe add water to lemonade so that the sourness decrease n then loses its sour taste , yup , its better this way , aaa its been a while since i tasted the nice aroma of the rose , 4 years ?

lol , seems like slenes has grown a little in terms of thinking, yeah i sure do, i am those kind of people who make new friends as i go out but normally dun keep them, its like unless we meet each other once per week or something or our friendship realli will become not as good , tats why whenever i met my old friends on the street or something i always do catch up and reflect how have u been and stuff or chat about the recent issues , lol

and now i am wondering how many friends will i be left wif after poly , lol , oh well , let me play a game or 2 , then do tutorial then sleep =D

looking forward to tml lesson and gonna prepare for friday's chalet surprise , hope they will like the surprise and not hate me for that =D

well then , cya all , call me for lunch ya ? lol =p


- By Nerdy @ 10:53 PM