i feel super lonely , but lucky i still have some friends , lol

yup tats right my class friends are back , haha

they realli good to me man , now that in my new BI class i dun haf a single good hang out friends and i know i never will

i guess i will hang out wif them , i reall ican laugh wif them , its different from the others , i agree wif my best friend , i treat others too good , making them happy behaving like a clown that he has lost the sense that he is actually sad himself but when the clown feels sad, he no longer know how to exprss his saddness even to his close ones

i realli hate this class , i know i have to depend on myself , i have to learn to eat lunch myself , i am no longer that person who has many friends around him during breaks. ok dunno why i am feeling VERY VERY moody now

it juz aint right , am i having depression ??? , ok lets start this shit all over again

ok now , i feel very lonely in class , maybe its cause i want to be lonely , i hate my classmates , i feel so helpless , now i have to eat lunch alone cause not everytime friends will accompany me to eat, eat alone in poly realli sux , u can ask me to ride , study , sleep alone , but not eat, i dun feel like talking to any1 in my class , but in the evil side of me , i can make use of them , like in class if i never come or wat shit can ask them for notes or something , nid help in programming can still ask them , so i have to wear a fake mask in order to survive in this new class ???

ah anyway my partner promise me not to come to my blog le, she very big mouth XD , ok now i cant possible tell her all my problems, cause if i do that , it will somehow affect her, the way she treat the people in the class , i sure dun want her to like always be wif me then lidat her relationship wif the other classmates will be not as close if u know wat i mean , i always tok to ying when i got problems but she isnt online , in this poly only a few ppl treat me like their xiao didi , aaa fuck this , i cant blog , chatting wif fenni =D

thx man , come to think of it , i shouldnt whine so much , a clown muz always be happy !!!! THATS THE RULE


- By Nerdy @ 10:55 PM