the presentation sux, lol , oh well , fuck that wadever sia , now i will only do administration job, so i hope i can do a good job of doing a programme to get the data from database1 and from the data there go to database2 and update to our own database, lol which is database3 , sounds chim eh , oh well, i try to do ba =D

and maggot, i am a petty person but i forget things very easily tats why i dun seem to be angry at things, lol , i cant remember wat kinda misunderstandings we got , i forgot le =D so no nid to clear le la , i forgot = clear-ed haha

i still like the kinda feeling of that once every 2 weeks we meet for lunch for like 2 hours, lol , cause will have many many things to discuss XD , i had lunch wif ding yu today and i myself enjoy-ed it , lol , he seems to be enjoying too , we were laughing all the way XD

oh well, tml we gonna play badminton again , i hope tml no meeting, haha so that i can play wif them, i guess the problem wif our project team is that we didnt do a lot of research , we got no idea on what we doing are useful n stuff which is very important , haha, oh well , now they , ah no we are seriously in deep shit after presentation , for now i hope everything seems ok , i went for a nap juz now and dream of shu hui , lol , its a scene of class scenes but i was lazy as usual and i met her 1-1 on the way to school, we make eye-contact and smile , is that a good sign ? as in i am getting over it ? feeling more relieve ? in a way my feeling tells me is that , lol

kinda confuse and for the ppl out there who doesnt mean my msn's nick
it means , "i cant say i love you"
second line means "sorry, i cant do it"
hehe thats the feeling i got and this b.day of mine is like special ? lol , so many ppl celebrating wif me , i am ssooo happy cause i normally stay at home without having my b.day getting noticed, cause its like other ppl other than old gang celebrating ti wif me , lol, kinda special , and its my 3 years in nyp for the first time that i celebrate my b.day wif them XD

now come to think of it , i cant kope wif my studies liao , lol at least 2 modules , advance database and the 3122 monday lesson , lol , which is kinda the most important module , i think this time i muz get good wif the guys in my class liao , so far ok , henry still teach me sia , power ,realli thx to him =D

yong jie too is a great help , lol , oh well , i hope they can send me their work , oh not forgetting guan wei XD

tml i am gonna play badminton wif them =D


- By Nerdy @ 12:05 AM

dun u luv project runway , damm nice lor that show , lol , i like the designer jade or somehting his name , hes the hip-pop fashion , a bit fat guy who always wear something on his head , hehe

i realli like his design sia , damm nice , but my favourite will still be the corn dress , zai that 1 , lol

ok now , i nearly break down juz now at around 6-8pm , lol, there this feeling hidden deep inside me ,lol , which i cant release it, but theres somethings i juz cant explain here , oh well wadever tis my blog right ? lol

whenever i helped her or interact wif her , i feel a little small happiness hanging around my heart but when come to think of it, she will only approach u for stuff liek homeworks n stuff project etc etc, then u will feel that hey am i thinking too much , maybe it isnt anything special as in sec sch i often ask other girls for homework, izzit this kinda feeling ? i often asked myself and sometimes drown myself wif it, its kinda confusing sometimes but oh well its the little things u did think of and those things make time kinda pass faster eh , lol

i realli realli realli regreted that i choose BI , should of go to FI or Mobile, lol, oh well been whining for weeks ,lol , nvm let me whine here instead of going out n scold fuck all over the place.

i juz wanna be honest and not be sneaky , u realli dun liek this person yet act as if ur very gam wif him , it sux realli , it realli sux

and of all the thing i must say this , GOOD LCUK TO slenes for tml's presentation !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


- By Nerdy @ 11:51 PM

today slenes is kinda sad again , i realli muz focus focus focus on not getting too involved

keep telling myself in my mind that we are only normal friends, the relationship we have is work and not more than that...

i realli shouldnt get into too much , juz a little normal friend's concern i treat it as some special feeling... a little childish eh

so now i will be eating lunch wif my chu lian =D oh well, damm nervous about tuesday , i am kinda lost in my own ideas , lol , shit that

aa lol i forgot to post , oh well nvm

juz now i thought of a realli good idea , lol, power idea for the project , now i damm confident liao , cause i know how to present le and oso come out wif possible questions they marker will shoot , lol

let me write those down before i forgot , and tats all , oh ya if u want a nice song , tell me ok ? its a japanese song btw and damm nice , dun worry cynthia , i will send u IF i see u online , lol


- By Nerdy @ 12:30 PM

waa , today's project meeting at my house !!! , lol imagine 3 girls coming to my house and my room is like -_-

so i decided to pack , lol , yes pack !!! , i pack for like 2 hours lor , haizz , then when i tell my mum my friends are coming over , my mum immediately mop the floor , lol , power

its like the cleaniness damm pro , damm clean , the clean-est of all times , this kinda cleaness is only seen at chinese new year , lol

and 1 thing my partner realli like green , lol , oh well at least now i know wat our project is all about liao =D

i dun realli think tats a lot of a good project worth doing , oh well , i juz want to pass all my module then lala i can GG liao , lol , gg = good game , hehe

ok so now , i am slacking like crazy , lol , yong jie told me that we dec babies finally got some1 to help us celebrate our b.day , lol , well i kinda agree wif him tou , sadly , so if next time my wife gonna have baby , i hope he/she is born any month except june or dec or jan , lol , april is good =D

ok tats all then , i nida rest my head , i think i didnt sleep well cause i got flu becuz of the dusk , lol , too clean liao la XD


- By Nerdy @ 7:47 PM

i am dreaming in this pic XD







muz type chio bu ah bo will get wack XD



they are only 14-16 yrs old , lol, look so mature !!! ,i look like japanese eh =p



well then tats all for now XD
some1 asked me to put my partner's picture in it. oh well i noly got 1 thing to say , i cant get her picture , lol , if u want , maybe can go friendster see for urself , lol tat is if ya that curious , ask me for directions i am lead u to her pic , lol and shes availiable XD , help her adverstise a bit , LOL


- By Nerdy @ 1:27 AM

first , its a really nice day to spent the 1 full day wif my friends , haha =D
its jason's b.dayand theres 2 chalet , 1 for jason's damm good friends and 1 for our class , so its 2 in 1 , lol

i brought something realli nice , haha , oreo biscuits inside put wasabi paste , for the first few i put A LOT OF WASABI paste then after a while i go smell the tip of the wasabi paste tube , wow i wanted to faint , lol, maybe cause i only slept for 2 hours that morning , then after that i oso scare my classmates cannot take it, so i juz put a LITTLE , lol , but in the chalet , i ate 1 and felt the power of the A LOT 1 , so sway...

jason got the a lot 1 oso , lol, his reaction , WASABI !!! , lol , it was a damm nice picture. then after shox took the WASABI he pause his game and went to the toilet , lol...

wats my reaction u guys asked , MINE WAS , in my mind "OMG SHIT , WHY SO SWAY TIO THE LOTS 1" then i quickly went the to frigde and drank some of melody's ice tea , lol , but i didnt touch the tip ar , haha ,so dun get jealous alien.

ok now , i got nothing to do and feast on a fish cooked by some1 , lol , maybe by jason not sure , i added chilli and damm it tasted good , lol

i start getting bored and saw ah zu, dave , tabacoo playing fist game , losers drink , lol

i played afew rounds and drink a little but after alien came in and tabacco sitting next to me , i start to lose a lot , lol , and drink bit by bit...

drink drink drink , my stomach started to feel like it was burning , lol , then i started to feel realli hungry , i start to eat a little and start my losing spree , sway , haiz , in the end some of us went to buy some stuff in the 7-11 , car drove by stella , eh i dunno who but is fenni's friend , hehe , thx for the ride =D

oh b4 the drinking , i smash a plate of cake onto jason (dave's idea) , after i smash him i walk straight like nothing then jason thought it was dave and they beign theri murdurous chase , lol , lucky that wasnt me i was thinking abck then when i saw them run killing each oither like nothing , lol

then dave a bit bei song , he started to rape me , lol , there i got it from my hair to my pants , zzz , down to my slipper , lol , SWAY !!!!

ok where was i , lol

oh ok , 7-11 , after we got back we drink a little then went for a bicycle ride to mac , hehe , then i start to feel a little head pain pain , stomach wanna vomit , hehe , then i must thx ding yu , fenni , juan , ying for taking care of me , special thx to ding yu and fenni.

i talked a lot , now i know how it feels like to be drunk and talked a lot of what happen which is hidden in the heart , a lot !!! almost all , but some told me to keep quiet and not talk about all these , haha

then we went to bedok jetty , i was quite ok but beginning to feel tired. i slept on 1 of the stone bench , i lost it all then after a while i kena awake by some violent guy who shock my hand and give me a fucking wake up hit , lol , i needed that actually ah bo i cant wake up 1 , haiz

then i walk a 2 sitter bicycle lead by ah zu , then GG , realli good game i cant move my leg that fast , lol , he ride too fast liao then hor very unstable , VERY !!! i felt like i almost hit the green rubbish bin along the jetty , haha , then my leg oso a bit cramp , then i call it a gg and changed to a single sit bicycle, after that i WAS VERY AWAKE , lol , believe me i was awake , very , after feeling how stupid i was for talking to others wif my little feelings kept inside me for like 4 months ?

i felt like i was very stupid yeah very , very very very stupid slenes , i will stop feeling stupid , sad for u , its over i hereby declare ON MY BLOG , ITS OVER , slenes is free from the nightmare...slenes will begin his chase for his love again.

ding yu and me had a good time going back home oso , lol =D
if i got a chance , i will still drink and talk out my xin shi( problem kept )
actually i am kinda feeling to be alone , dun marry but i guess my mum de last wish is to see us all settle down wif children...

oh well , see thats another problem , lol. oh well , i can get hit again i think , cause the last time i was serious , cause in the previous relationship i wasnt VERY serious , oh well who cares its over already


- By Nerdy @ 10:11 AM

this is killing me , lol , i think i need to escape yeah , its getting deeper , i cant help but fall into it , haiz , its like an endless pit whereby no matter how deep u fall , u will never reach the bottom of the heart

sometimes i hate myself for being useless , yeah and thx swirlyeyes and dvd for making my day , lol , juz happen to see u guys in south =D

cause i am gonna meet my project team , i kinda cant mix wif them well , lol , aaaa i dunno or izzit i try not to mix wif them ? oh well crap , i still got lots of things hafen do , lol

hafen pack bag for chalet , wth , haiz wadever , let me play 1 gg then go bed...


- By Nerdy @ 12:39 AM

its hard for me to fall in love again, lol

althought i am forgetting the past, but i notice somethings in my dreams , it keep poping up , lol, a girl whose always there for me yeah , lol

i know i cant fall for her , i juz know that , but somehow somehow bit by bit i am falling, but i should continue to keep it a secret till that 1 day i cant hold on to it , lol

starting of project , qi yea cynthia we are all always saying the things happening around us recently and they notice there is always that 1 person i will always complain about , lol and then they will begin to tease me n stuff , its this kinda comments that lead u to having an unique feeling when u see that person , haha

rumours sometimes tend to bring them together , qi yea is 1 i know , lol , remember that saturday when we OT together, yeah i will always remember NCS and those people who have leave traces of footprints in my heart.

whenever ya falling in luv there are always somethings there to stop u, or should i say , i always find soemthing to stop myself , lol , yup

its realli very bad when some1 make used of u and thus create this friendship , they doesnt wanna know u , they are juz making use of u somehow they give u the impression that ur a very good friend to them. hehe

oh well i guess i will still keep this little secret inside my heart , i am always silent cause i still like to be quiet and keeping a low profile , its this kinda attitude that makes me a little problematic , but oh well its juz keeping quiet so i dun realli care.

anyway i like thursday class , lol , looking forward to tml's lesson even though i will be having problem fidning some1 to eat wif , lol , cause ying they all will be ahving break at 1pm , mi at 12 haha, oh well, maybe i will go find ding yu or something , it juz sux being alone when it comes to eating , for other stuff its cool actually for me

i still wanna remind myself that its tough to keep the feeling within my little heart , but it will be regretful if i am gonna be honest to myself so wadever it is , i hope i am able to control myself and not let any1 learn that...i am falling , anyway its hard to fall in luv wif a girl who doesnt have good impression of u , when it gets long it will be a 1 sided luv , if the 1 sided luv delay-ed for a long time it will make that person become worried , becoming very supucious , aa dunno how to spell , lol , hua yi in chinese over the slightest thing , haha

ok now my mind is filled with memories, good ones =D , i know i might sound sick but pls tell me those words like we are not meant to be , we are impossible , we can only be friends , better friends than lovers , i muz see these words then i will give up or maybe add water to lemonade so that the sourness decrease n then loses its sour taste , yup , its better this way , aaa its been a while since i tasted the nice aroma of the rose , 4 years ?

lol , seems like slenes has grown a little in terms of thinking, yeah i sure do, i am those kind of people who make new friends as i go out but normally dun keep them, its like unless we meet each other once per week or something or our friendship realli will become not as good , tats why whenever i met my old friends on the street or something i always do catch up and reflect how have u been and stuff or chat about the recent issues , lol

and now i am wondering how many friends will i be left wif after poly , lol , oh well , let me play a game or 2 , then do tutorial then sleep =D

looking forward to tml lesson and gonna prepare for friday's chalet surprise , hope they will like the surprise and not hate me for that =D

well then , cya all , call me for lunch ya ? lol =p


- By Nerdy @ 10:53 PM

oh well i woke up this early , lol , and it sux , but oh well we managed to finish the NS checkup at around 1 plus then we went to had lunch and have a good talk , joke

actually sometimes its good to know a new friend , his name if kenny my best friend's friend XD , haha , hes a funny yet cool guy , yeah

oh and if i knew that i will be back at school by 4.45pm i wouldnt have come , haiz , its cause that mr adrian see never reply my e-mail so i thought it would be better to go down in person and tell him the reason , nabei then kena suan , fuck lor , haiz

and got some notes from my partner , thx ar , lol , in future pls take care of me , yoroshiku =D

now i duno whether i should wait for ym favourite anime suzuka to dl finish cause it might take another 80 minutes , if i were to wait now it would be around 1am till bedtime , lol

and i got a project meeting ok so now i dunno what to do , lol , in fact i realli dunno what to discuss about and what to do in the project cause i nv go for tutorial , aa it sux to miss monday class even though it sux.

i take friendships for granted , lol , cause i the those kinda people who goes to friends for helps instead of trying on my own, if i aint got problem then i will not see them , but oh well , if my friends stay near me then we can go home together but too bad none of my new classmates are going


oh ya this friday got a chalet from jason , lol , he nv invite me so i aint sure whether i am welcome or soemthing but i realli shouldnt think so much as fenni , juan they all ask me to go

i promise i will be there , lol , and oh ya sunday i happen to pass the supermarket and saw some interesting thing , lol , cause this i think will be the last chalet wif my old class dudes so i guess i will have somehting up my sleeve but the budge wise isnt very cool , so i might ask some of u guys =D ,if ya interested tell me , only for DIT0301 , haha , i need another 2-3 people , if 2 people , nid to give me $2-3 , if 3 people , then nid to give me $1-2 , hehe

ok now , INTERESTED tell me ar , and ying not allowed =p haha , ok then cya
oh wait nono , I HATE GAYS ,to all those who hafen go NS checkup , pls beware of the guy in the photo studio there , BECAREFUL


- By Nerdy @ 10:55 PM

being alone juz isnt right but somehow in my heart i wanna be lonely , sicne i cant click wif people in my class now , or yet ?

haha , but anyway , i dunno why whetehr i get sad , i get realli sad , and then i recvoer liek damm fast , lol

oh well nowadays i am struck wif a sore throat , kinda suxy cause mtl i got NS checkup , woot , lol

oh yeah and tuesday me and some of my classmates gonna play badminton , 1 of them is a coach , woot o.O , eyes big liao =D

its time to put my skills to test but then juz now my partner said they might be a project meeting on tuesday , lol , wahahhaha , siao liao , dunno man

if it is then that will be the first time we sit down togetehr and discuss as a team , lol , but they VB students , waa , siao liao

hope they are not that hopeless when it coems to programming. After i blog the last entries , many people came and ask me how am i , waa , feel kidna touched , oh well , actually very touched , lol

but i still wanna keep my feelings to myself, well most of them, i feel so idiot when i block some of my classmates , lol , in msn i mean , oh well i added them back liao

oh and jay zhou wrote a song to scold those gou zai dui =D , ncie 1
sian , i muz go cut hair liao , haha

and my partner rebond hair wor , lol , dunno chio or not , monday then go see =D
take care all my friends =D


- By Nerdy @ 2:22 PM

i feel super lonely , but lucky i still have some friends , lol

yup tats right my class friends are back , haha

they realli good to me man , now that in my new BI class i dun haf a single good hang out friends and i know i never will

i guess i will hang out wif them , i reall ican laugh wif them , its different from the others , i agree wif my best friend , i treat others too good , making them happy behaving like a clown that he has lost the sense that he is actually sad himself but when the clown feels sad, he no longer know how to exprss his saddness even to his close ones

i realli hate this class , i know i have to depend on myself , i have to learn to eat lunch myself , i am no longer that person who has many friends around him during breaks. ok dunno why i am feeling VERY VERY moody now

it juz aint right , am i having depression ??? , ok lets start this shit all over again

ok now , i feel very lonely in class , maybe its cause i want to be lonely , i hate my classmates , i feel so helpless , now i have to eat lunch alone cause not everytime friends will accompany me to eat, eat alone in poly realli sux , u can ask me to ride , study , sleep alone , but not eat, i dun feel like talking to any1 in my class , but in the evil side of me , i can make use of them , like in class if i never come or wat shit can ask them for notes or something , nid help in programming can still ask them , so i have to wear a fake mask in order to survive in this new class ???

ah anyway my partner promise me not to come to my blog le, she very big mouth XD , ok now i cant possible tell her all my problems, cause if i do that , it will somehow affect her, the way she treat the people in the class , i sure dun want her to like always be wif me then lidat her relationship wif the other classmates will be not as close if u know wat i mean , i always tok to ying when i got problems but she isnt online , in this poly only a few ppl treat me like their xiao didi , aaa fuck this , i cant blog , chatting wif fenni =D

thx man , come to think of it , i shouldnt whine so much , a clown muz always be happy !!!! THATS THE RULE


- By Nerdy @ 10:55 PM

i am suffering , so many problems and stuff to conclude , school problems , never did i expect my partner to coem yo my blog , OMG

so here , hi partner XD , hehe

ok anyway i cant explain problems here cuz maybe some of the people except my partner comes here then see = i die liao

here now i muz thx cynthia for being there for me especially at this time of the day.

ah guan wei sms me that tml is e tutorial , lol , does that mean no nid to go sch ?
and anyway tml is lab , not tutorial , lol , ok holy shit

so wat am i suppose to do now , if mtl i go , no lession , means i got 5 hours of free time , lol

oh well hack it , lol , i am gonna stay quiet and keep a low profile in the new class , not that i can click wif all of the people , but some , those dota dudes XD

and nov a lot of my friends birthday , lol , siao liao

i seriously hate monday now , that module i realli dun quite know how to do the practicals , lol , siao sia , like doing english exams which i sux a lot in , haizz

really wanted to go to internet mobile when qi yea asked me to , lol

somemore only a few girls in my new class can "see" , so ke lian , haizzzzz

ok la end of story , i cant afford to be late , still nid to eat breakfast then jog then slack a while then meet cynthia to lunch then go NE , lol tats my plan for tml

i think everything will be solved by itself well i hope , lol


- By Nerdy @ 12:52 AM

waiting is like getting poison-ed, unless she gives me the antidote , or i will not wait , hehe

sleeping is a problem now , i wake up everyday at 2pm , lol , but sch gonna start later at 9am, oh dear , means 8.15am die die muz go out of house prepared

and now its 2.30am , lol , should i go to bed or wat , omg

i got a feeling i am gonna hate my new classmates , cuz 75% i know liao , hope the 25% are nice people , lol

if chio bu even better =D , juz 1 is enough ,no nid too many , lol

oh well i juz feel that i am gonna hate my classmates , lol , wadever la , later 9am then see for myself, haf fun in sch =p


- By Nerdy @ 2:11 AM

went back to sch to buy notes, lol , hardworking eh thx to my last partner , lol

oh well anyway i met a few of my classmates , we had a nice time together , cya guys on monday lunch , its been half a year since we met...

unexpected i met the girl i used to like, i seriously thought that after the holidays i will get over it , lol , never did i expect i fail to do so, oh well , maybe this time i realli give my true heart , oh well but hey we shouldnt force something , some things cant be forced...

but i met ws and the guy who like her helped them buy note so i ran all the way from amc to printing shop , lol , thx , and i didnt have to que up , lol , yeah , lucky ass , i am 1

my partner was suppose to go wif them to buy notes , never did i expect her to buy her notes alone, if shes going alone , why didnt she tell me , lol , oh well

here i got a problem , maybe i can share wif u guys , ok heres the situation

u fail in love , after 1 few weeks ,u met something u dunno , total stranger to u but u guys spent 3 days of fun together , had a great time, when ur wif her , u didnt think of ur previous love.

1: will u stay in contact wif the girl u spent time wif for 3 days
2: will u stay await for the revpious love and continue to pursuit
3: will u stick to urself n rest for a while

tough eh, been thinking for a while now , so wat will u do slenes and wat advise will u ya u guys give to slenes, 2 days mroe to sch , enjoy the time u have got...


- By Nerdy @ 11:22 PM