lately nothing realli interesting happen except for 1 very very i dunno howto explain thing happen to me

ok here we go , 1 day i was riding like a cheap ass dude , riding riding riding ,i dunno where my destination , i juz ride liek nobody's business thinking that its holiday and my mum went on a trip to thailand

it happen on thursday last thursday, i was at paris park , lol , i wonder how i am there , i wanted to juz call my auntie and asked if i could stay over there but i decide to visit the sea and feel the breeze.

and somehow without sleeping for like 1 1/2 day , well all i did are stop by those 24 hours kopitam , met a few ex-classmates , chat a bit n stuff and in the end i ended up at the bridge between esplande and the merlion, there sitting at 1 of the benches.

i helped a foreign group of girls take a group photo, and boom i got a kiss on my cheek , and i hafen bath for 1 1/2 day, oh how i wonder how she felt about it , mayeb she did regret, lol

i asked them where they came from, from oregon , and i wonder where that was , lol , she said its in the US , oh well, maybe 1 of the town i guess , then we chat a little about things like why she came here n stuff , oh well.

in the end we exchanged address and contact.

conclusion => i help a group of girls took a group photo and got a kiss on the cheek from tasha and shes 15 already at a height of from then 160 i think , maybe 163-166cm

i got a kiss , OMFG , damm it, its been like wat ? 4 years since i got a kiss from a girl lol , i dunno whether i should be happy or wat, oh dear , so in the end i stun for a while , say gd bye as they had to leave, i went back home STRAIGHT AWAY, lol, i dunno wat to do man, all i could think of is sleep and wtf , omg in my head , nothing else


ok now i got my results , ipp=A , fyp=B+ , lol
i dunno why and how i scored so well , i realli didnt expect , thx lawrence tham for the b+ , i told him to give my partner an A cuz she deserved it, and i said i dont care about my grades , maybe becuz of that my partner got an A and me a B+ , or maybe my partner realli did deserved an A , lol, oh well , wadever hope she doesnt see this , lol

oh and my gpa increased by 0.2 , lol , i told myself wtf , i always answered this question , "hey wats ur gpa" i would answer 2.6 lor, now i can changed my answer to 2.8 , lol, anyway results isnt very important to me , unlike my partner last time in fyp , she cares about grades a lot !!! different people has different values in life i think, as long as ya happy then its cool , sometimes i juz wanna get out of studies and do wat i like but my mum will not accept it , so studying is like a stepping stone to my dreams , i love to tok to people , socialise , let them have a good time so all of this aspects lead me to tourism , i think i can be into the service-industry better , but wadever job i do , i give my 100%. maybe tats why i got an A for ipp , lol. i have been playing some games and foudn out that more n more people young ones are playing games , lol , i felt like an old dude now.
12 , 13 , 14 , 15 playing the same game as me , lol ya i definitly felt that I AM OLD ALREADY.

oh well 1 more week to school , lol but 13 more weeks to graduation , lol , time realli flies, hope that all things willl end nicely.
school ends the same way as some friendships, maybe someday we will cross path with each other somewhere in the city yet do not recognise each other...

everytime i coem to this blog i felt sadness filling over me, i dunno why , lol , oh ya heres to sum1 , i know my friends are still on but i cant approach them , i cant let them see the sad , weak slenes , becuz i saw my best friend anger , sadness , confusion last last sunday , i felt sad and nothing i could do , hes got family problems , well i tried to help but there are somethings that an outsider juz cant be of much help.

oh ya been watching anime like suzuka , paradise kiss , wow it was nice , lol , u guys should go watch it , for now its dinner time i guess , i sure hope tasha has a wonderful time here , lol, hope to chat wif u next time i guess , cuz the time is really killing me , i have to wake up at 8am to chat wif her, and its 4pm there when its 8am here , so its kinda killing me , this reminds me of lene a girl from canada , oh well i better not tok about it , i have never told any1 about it , about the girl name lene.

and slenes come from the girl name lene, aa i better not continue, i should keep it a secret , my only secret in my whole entire life , play hard guys , scholl gonna star in a weeks time.


- By Nerdy @ 6:10 PM

the dream that cant be realized

the doubts that wun resolved

the self that cant throw everything away

the days that wun give answers

i will...

go along my life believing the thing that day i searched for but i couldnt find , someday for sure , yeah for sure it will .....


- By Nerdy @ 2:52 AM

pain, its nothing but pain...forcing myself to not love u, yeah , i still cant get over it, everytime i think of u , i would forced myself to get over it

i cant love u no more, there is no right or wrong in love...i respect ur decision, but i just cant get over it , i dunno why...

deep in the night ,2am, i can only hear the voice of rejection and the sound of the running cpu...all i could think of is you and me nothing else, glazing at the moon , reflecting the past the happy hours , whenever i see the happy screens i would forced myself to remember the things u said to me...

many asked if i am ok , how haf u been , i cant answer them, all i could tell was a white lie saying "yea, i am ok, haha" but that wasnt how i felt, i used to felt this "I just don't give a good god damn anymore about how I feel. I feel unhappy, so what? I'll get over it, I always do"

i take back these words...i feel sad, empty, cold...

i dun wanna be alone anymore , being lonely will only make me think more of u and i dun want that , i dun wanna pressure u no more , stress u , acting pitiful...i should stop acting childish being foolish, treating care & concern for love. tats wats i always do yea always , cuz i am that myself, i juz hope the study sem will be over soon...along wif the sad memories nyp has given me


- By Nerdy @ 2:02 AM

aa hafen blog for a long time i guess , lol , well enough of my little story , love life i guess , every experience is a step into maturity....its a tough road i know

i have thought of it clearly, i will wait for "love" n not pursue it. ya tats right...actually i am a weak person who cant afford to lose too many times...its bad for health.

anyway i juz watched a show on channel U. i agree the fact tat a cert of study is important but i dun really think its useless , but if the social thinks its important then wat will happen to those talented ppl who aint got a cert ? wun they have no job or like they said always be an office boy wif juz an "O" lvl cert or "A" ?

now nobody give a damm about "N" lvl and juz fuck ITE, so wat now , government is encouraging us that ITE isnt all that bad and the social dun give a damm about them ?

ok now , this is lame, 1 more problem discussed is that some ppl study blindly , they only study wats in the book and not why is it lidat bah bah , these ppl got a nice cert but actually they aint very good at working on the actual thing , they are only good at studies, so now, wtf will happen for those talented ones ?

ok its hard to imagine..so for now , get a cert and live wif it, cert is juz a paper wif open some doors of opponunity and nothing more , what really will get u to those big positions are ur mind set , attitude, talent and some other shits...

alright then , gotta rot my life away in this holiday, hope u can retrieve a not yet decayed slenes...


- By Nerdy @ 2:45 AM