I CONFESS TODAY , LOL, well rather , i asked her to make a decision , all she said to me was she needed more time to think about it...

actually i already expect that answer le...
when i got back home i asked her wats stopping her , she cant tell me the reason
i asked 1 more , is there other guy in her mind , she asked me not to think too much

i am realli confused...she told me not to ask her y today but all the Ys are coming to my mind, floating around me, the devil here keeps on presenting the"give up, shes not interested in u" bubble , the angel on the other hand talk about the "hey she didnt reject u, juz wait for her to be more prepared"

then here i am , watching both sides present their stuff , having to make a decision....i know i can make the changes easily, so in the end i told her , i think we should stop seeing each other for a while ba , cuz doing that i personally think it will help her make a proper decision but it will lower the chance of me being wif her

so all i can do is wait n nothing else , this hurts more than anything...i dunno wat to do le , dunno how to face her anymore...i am realli nervous , i cant think of anything to say , by the time i got a hold of my courage , we are already under her block waiting for the lift, and i went up wif her saying i got soemthing to gif her.....all i could say is PAISEH , its all the way , her face were all red , my mouth cant open correctly , yes there are things i wanna say but i juz cant say it out , i hate myself...5th seph, i will always remember this day...the day i first confess to some1 i realli luv , i didnt get rejected or accepted by her, all i got is i need some time to consider actually a lot of time to consider...

i hope i can be the 1 u cant live without , promise u that this will be the last relationship u will be into , i really luv u , all i can say is give me a chance ba.....but if u cant for some reason , its really ok really...we can still be good friends ba

i hate myself now , wouldnt it juz be enough to meet her everyday , send her home , why am i so greedy , why...now that things have become this way...

damm i muz stop thinking about it , i muz go n sleep , sorry to let u make a decision between friendship and love , i didnt mean it , i will be waiting for ur answer...


- By Nerdy @ 7:40 PM