soemtimes my partner and i go into deep conversation , lol , like how we feel on certain things...

the way a girl see things and act are different from wat a guy like me thinks

if wat ur saying is true , partner , it will be quite scary , lol
yes we do act differently , be natural better , lol

i told my partner this i can be both quiet and noisy , but being noisy isnt the natural me ba but she said she prefer me to be those crappy guy , or rather noisy

my bad points as she pointed out are mouth evil , then wat ar , ohoh , eyes , lol , always go out see girls

ws and she said when i go out wif the girl i liek , better dun see girls , see oso dont comment , well if its better then i stop ba XD


girls sometimes act as if they dun care but actually they do , lol

once a girl's heart is touched , or belong to some1 , its kinda hard for them to move on to another 1. well tats how i feel

girl's thought can change realli fast , she will say no to u then the next minute a yes, oh well depends.... hehe

ok time for me to go play games le , nid to sleep early , but friday i cant get to see u again in sch , haiz...

and hor partner , i really am myself when i am infront of her , i didnt act lor , lol , i juz play wif u ma XD

take care...


- By Nerdy @ 1:22 AM

lots of words flooding my mind but when i am wif u , all these are too embarassing to say , oh well , sometimes i wanna show u all the concern in the world but we r juz friends still...

i wonder if u are waiting for me to pop the question, and u really look good in formal clothes =) , very pretty

i will always remember the curse , lol , in ur love relationships , there will be lots of ups and downs , i juz hope i can change dreams into reality sometimes

u asked me , why u wannna go ar to her chalet , her reason not wanting me to go is =>>> the bbq is vegetarian
i dunno , come to think of it , i wanted to go wif u but isnt it weird , lol , i mean caroline didnt ask me go wor , only u so if i go wif u , doesnt that mean..."sticks out my last little finger" ???

lol , i think too much afterall , ur correct partner, even though i cant work wif u for the project during our studies , i will still call u partner , lol , or "oie" hehe

like u said partner , the boat will be straight when its gonna reach the shore ?
aaaa juz change that to chinese n u will know wat i am toking about...

i cant see u for 4 days , awww , well i guess its ok ba when u said u needed rest =)

rest well , play well and dun throw away ur mood of working , cuz tats the hardest to comeby and easiest to throw off...

today is the first time i slept in front of my supervisor , my head realli hurts , i cant think man , hafen slept for 2 days , lol , b4 presentation its still ok but after tat my mind is off...

oh well , 5 more weeks to go......


- By Nerdy @ 1:19 AM

i am a petty little skinny monkey shit...

sorry my partner yet again , kinda understand why u dont wanna work wif me on project again , lol

got me this kinda partner is u bad luck eh , haha

sry to u for always letting u see the bad side of me
haiz...

maybe its wrong for u to like me , tat is if u like me... for tat i aint sure
i will write the "how i feel of girls" next time , juz nid to vent out some anger...i played dota 1 game but still not happy , lol

i juz hope the doing of ur class diagram will cover for the rude attitude i gave u juz a couple of hours ago , sorry...

if this relationship is going to end , i really hope it will end now
the longer it is , the harder i can bear to part

i love u , i still do...i wish that sickness of urs will come over to me, hope i am the 1 the sickness is damaging...

All the best 2 our presentation later at 9am...


- By Nerdy @ 3:32 AM

haiz , i feel so stupid , lol

i am watching channel U , they feel saying steal steal steal , lol
download mp3 oso wrong haiz , steal

then got 1 guy say u say download mp3 wrong then why they sell mp3 , lol

dun tell me u spent $300 for a mp3 player which have FM radio and voice recording function , dun give me that , lol

the reason why i feel a bit bad is that lol , i am currently DOWNLOADING SONGS , lol
but hey i dun care man , i like the song , i listen then i download , i am not even downloading and burning it out or anything like that...oh wel its against the law anyway...

sometimes its bad to be the child of those ministers , lol its crazy...

interesting show , lol you hua jiu shou comeon shoot , lol , nice show eh , hehe
oh well i managed to download all the songs on the website , lol

cuz it will cease by 10pm TODAY , lol , lucky , thx ar yvonne , lol
didnt let u down , lol , i tried my best liao le , hehe
but i cannot download the movie , hehe but that project of theirs isnt gonna cease yet , and why dun haf kelly de ar , haiz , only got derrick de , yawn leh...

i get to see her sister today , lol, hehe know that u got tao hua yun wor , hehe
am i 1 of the bad tao hua ? lol
maybe next time got chance let ur mum count , hehe
and i dotn smoke XD

maybe i do have a chance eh and how come ur mum know me ar , haiz, then now ur sis know me , power , ur sis still say ni ai wo jiejie la , lol
haiz , so paiseh sia me

i think the action "let me take the file for u" is kinda like a confirmation for me ba , and when u took the lift to ur wai po jia and u take a look at me juz b4 u went up , very touching , lol , even if i were to walk home , i got no regrets XD

thx...


- By Nerdy @ 9:33 PM

the more i am wif her , the more i like her...
it might be best if we stay the way we are now
if confessing to u will destroy our current relationship
i will be happy to stay like this forever

i like u sicne the first time i met u, yeah , its that long...been very paiseh to want to know u but wadever, its the past rite ?

memories juz sux and i hate myself for not knowing u better in the past , i had all the time in the world but now NS is coming , final year of poly too , which means i cant fail and nid to be careful in wat i do, been longing to say this but...

when u finally has the courage to say i like u, can u go out wif me ?

normally girl will reply , its too sudden, we only know each other for a short period of time, we dunno each other well

maybe in the end i will get rejected...youth really will end for me if i got rejected


- By Nerdy @ 12:22 AM

no matter how sad it is , i will not give up
wif this millions of thoughts my brain has produced , i no longer know which situation i am in, am i dreaming or am i in reality...
i love u is tat all i can say ? is there anything else i can do
wanting to hold ur hands but wtf am i , i juz cant , i am afraid of being rejected , should i be happy wif wat i am now wif the current states or should i move on ?
does time really will improve or will it juz let the girl lost interest in u

should i or should i not , maybe i really shouldnt , i cant sorry... i realli cant , haiz , i guess i nid to understand u better...even if i do , willl u gimme the chance , gimme the chance to love u

dun regret over the things u didnt do , regret it after...sounds good eh but i dun haf the courage to do it , haiz, seeing her makes me nervous let alone saying those things to her , haiz

even if kena reject , at least she will know my true feelings but i think she already know le la , haizzzzz

kk time to sleep , yawn le


- By Nerdy @ 11:26 PM

everything just changed when i met her face to face XD

we didnt meet each other today as i am quite late , i sign in at 8.42am reaching at 8.30am then slowly day-dream walk to the place haha

i dunno why , when i am alone thinking about this relationship , i am very negative , lol

but after seeing her and toking to her , all those thoughts are gone , lol
saw swirly , think hes lonely ba , haiz , think he went to the gym , haha , tough guy...after school gym , power...oh well , and i dun like the girl in red jacket la , she is my partner , its the girl in white XD

i will move on continue on =)

JIA YOU slenes !!!!!!!!!


- By Nerdy @ 6:58 PM

maybe we are just normal friends , actually we are...we aint a couple yet

the story begin as she ask me tml go for kendo , then i say not going got something more important

then she ask wat is important , then i say finding a girl tat i like , i keep asking her if she know who

then she reply izzit my partner then i am a bit disappointed , really sad

after tat ske ask me to go for kendo , i dunno , theres 2 option , either she dun like me or she is meaning dun give up kendo becuz of her

i am realli confuse , sometimes i wonder do u luv me ? or are we juz meant to be juz good friends...

she ask me y am i confuse , i didnt reply her , i dun even know wat to reply...i dun wanna gif up this relationship...i am sad...i guess this is a 1 sided love ba , but she asked me to take care and take some rest cuz i got leg cramp , is tat something special ? or izzit juz wat a good friend will say ?

i am confuse , i realli hope god can enlighten me , pls do so if u hear my calls...maybe i shouldnt send her home and meet early to go school together , maybe shes tired of me , start of the day see my face , end of it b4 she rests at home oso see my face , haiz

i dun wanna think anymore liao , sometimes i nid some confirmation of my actions , i really do so , i am so in luv wif u , i cant help but think.

i am sure if i say i wanna gif up , u will not stop me but i aint gonna stop
sometimes i feel that i aint ur type , u nid some1 who luvs u , protect u , care about u but all i can do is luv and care about u , i am so weak , i cant protect u , haizz


this is a joke , guess i will stop thinking , sorry for not replying ur sms , i dunno how to reply, too many doubts...

i will juz hope someday u will luv me more than i luv u, looking forward to ur self-prepared dinner =)


- By Nerdy @ 7:54 PM

sometimes i asked myself , am i ready for a new relationship ? juz that i nid to be fair... always asking u , thinking about u , sometimes i should think of myself , ask myself

do i luv u...i can say i dunno , maybe its the first time i saw u , i got this feeling , love at first sight ba

onced u asked me are we suitable ?
only now i got a answer to that, we actually are , lol

am i ready for a new relationship ?
tat i aint quite sure , maybe i am not, its still hard for me to take the initiative , actually for me now its hard to "afford" a girlfriend , haha
in my past experience , i can hardly treat her to a movie , just tat i can only be there for her , make her laugh smile etc etc

in the bus when i am tired and have a sit , i will start thinking , lol , everytime this happens...hard to manage...haiz...

i guess u are ready now , its just me , sometimes i just hate myself , and if i were to go into this relationship , it would just be unfair to u and to me oso...

oh and i realli wanna see the pic in ur lanyard leh , haha , so afar i see like not bad XD , dunno how the "past" u look like , haha

damm i was late today meeting u haha sorry ne , haiz , i waited 7 minutes for the next bus , its kinda stupid but no choice , sian , its just 10 seconds , if i were to leave home at 8.45am , this aint happening , haiz, sorry made u wait

oh hafen say tml same place same time, maybe maybe u will wait for me ? or should i try sms-ing u ? or should i ??? wait ? i think i will reach early lor then wait for u , hehe

the walking pace from khatib mrt to ur house suddenly become so slow...i have been getting flu , sian...is it the air con , haiz , TML GOT P.E , hell nooooo , lol

in sec sch, the only motivation i got is seeing girls in shorts , lol but now , only like 4-6 girls go P.E cuz its not a "must" , nothing to see...or maybe u will be there ? then tats different , hehe , hope ya there n if ya there , hope u take a lookout for me ok ? better if u can join me , haha , NEVER seen u in short or skirt !!!!! i might sound a bit hentai but i muz still say this , i wanna see !!!!!

lol , did it scare my visitor ? haha , and oh ya sorry to disappoint the ppl who come to this blog , around 10 in a day , coming here and didnt see any new post

actually i got something to blog , juz tat too tired and no feeling mood to blog it down, haha
btw thx for coming ok ? haha , cuz if no1 comes to my blog , it will somehow affect the motivation for me to blog
and if ya ever bored , go take the personality test at www.swirve.com
the first time i took the test , i am artitecture but recently i took the test , i got champion , all i got to say is , its quite true , haha

well tat is if ya bored , ok 1 more anime then i will go to bed at 12.30am , i shouldnt sleep late cuz its bad to let the person u luv wait rite ? haha even if its just 10 seconds its rude...


- By Nerdy @ 11:56 PM

lately everything has been cancelled , haha

tml small gathering , hehe
dinner wif my best friend louis

i wanna say sorry to 2 girls yuen leng(red bean) and pei ting
sorry ar , put u 2 aeroplane...

too bad ba , get to show my little short temper to her , lol
well i am a guy who gets pissed easily then angry but on the good point i get back to normal pretty easy, lol

lately i might be a bit rude to my partner , dunno why she sent me a good nite sms , lol , i guess that sms means ur not angry wif me anymore rite ?

but i think once u see my face ya will get angry again , lol
but i guess i will not call u by any nicks ever again , will juz call u partner ba

tml 8.25am will be meeting her to sch wor , lol , i reali hope i can wake up early , wahahah and tuesday holiday , lol

i juz hope i can get a phone then can take picture liao , lol
haiz , dunno why i juz hope my hair can grow faster , grow to middle length ok liao XD

oh suddenly remember my ncs was saying that girl tat i target must be thin , then 1 of them asked , if the girl grow fat leh , then he will kick her aside ?
then again 1 of the girl reply , no la ,i think he will still luv her

lol , kinda true u know , u muz be attract(in my eyes) , but after knowing u le , i dun realli care about ur size la but dun get too big la , lol

thx for ur mp3 ar , lol , listening to music and coding has becoming more of a best combination , in NCS , lol , i learn all of my skills in NCS , i wonder what have i been doing in the past 2 years giving money to NYP , hehe

sometimes i felt poly is juz a place to understand human nature and sort of learn some knowledge, its a place to interact wif ppl , in the end u will understand the concept of "how do i survive in an environment where every1 is juz wearing a mask"

heard from my partner that teo is juz a bad girl , lol, juz thinking of what she say , even if shes the prettiest girl on earth , i will never want to know her , lol
she said every1 in the class dun like her but act all sweet and nice infront of her

wow , i muz say ur the best acting class.
i guess sometimes ppl dun liek the truth ba, cuz sometimes it realli hurts
if i were to say negative things of the ppl around me , i think i will be lonely, which i actually cannot...i will die if i were to eat alone during tea break

sorry dvd for not being able to eat lunch wif u , haiz , lol and thx for letting me play dota , heheh , u know la blk R realli sux

sorry partner for always saying i will do this n that but in theend i fail to do so n for me always saying u fat, auntie and some other stuff cause i thought its fun but for u i guess its not and thx for working so hard for this project of ours

sorry my best friend for always taking my bad temper and sudden arangement of biking time and thx for ur concern and u show ur emotions wif me, realli appreciate it

sorry mum for saying u cause i am already 18 , so for u not being at home for 1 week isnt really tat good of a deal and thx for supporting me and giving me all the freedom i have got now

sorry class DIT0301 for wearing a mask , i realli didnt mean it , shouldnt have tell the ugly truth about some of them yet i wrote it somewhere in my blog and cause some unhappiness and thx i realli enjoy the times when we go shopping together during year 1 , lol, if i can go back , i realli wanna go back to orientation and start anew, keeping quiet all the times , i think that would be better , even though i still remember orientation , lol

sorry to u , cause this is the first ever serious relationship i am going to enter , i am quite nervous , got lots of questions , lots of wat if in my mind , i juz hope i can be more natural and hope u can get used to my silent and thx for giving me chance , i will make sure this is ur last relationship wif a guy. i am a little "hua xin" but i will not "dong xin" , tat i am very sure

dunno why i am writing all these , lol , guess today is my period ba , haha
this happens when i am all alone in the house listening to love songs, tats wat happen...

qiyea says "u luv her more than she luv u"

lol , well , tat i aint very sure , lol
his thinking very funny 1 , lol , still remember the first date wednesday ?
she tell u she thursday not free , tat means mon-wed and friday she is free , lol
tats wat he said

is it rude to delete ppl from msn ?
actually i do that quite often , haiz...
1 of my ncs colleague a malay girl farhanah said ya hor , lately nv see u online leh , u delete mi izzit

i dunno how to answer her , i realli dont , i mean if on msn u see me online and not talk to me , isnt it ok if i delete u since we dont tok at all

or ya didnt delete me cause u can have lots more contact ?
i realli dont understand...really dont...haiz

sometimes i juz hate living in this world , why would some1 create this world , wouldnt it be better if i can juz live on a place somewhere AWAY from this stressful world, i wanna know wat will become of me if i die , lol , i wanna know wat the future hold of me

i believe i am a spirit controlling this body , lol , weird rite ?
i juz think this way cause b4 the moment i was thinking i didnt meet louis for dinner for some reason then after a while he msged me in msn saying he cant make it for dinner...

this world is full of whys...full of demand...full of competition...full of anger...tats why problems come, imagine if we dont have a thing call money , lol, that will be another world , and as in anime naruto , imagine theres some1 out there able to use special skills

aaa ok i am day dreaming again...lol
sometimes its good to read newspaper when ya free , lloll

i read an article saying something about blogging and anger within young ppl
i kinda agree wif him , we should actually stop this kinda bloggers , they reveal the inner demons , wat they are thinking and write it out in their blogs
ok its nothing wrong but but , if u keep it and write it out , u will become more angry , anger fills the mind

aa cant imagine , lol. every blog has an objective , u cant say wads wrong and wads not actually

soem bloggers wants to treat their blog as a personally dairy , some random thoughts and wat happen on when

some treat it as place to discuss wat happen recently , many many more

mine is more to the random thoughts , how i feel against things or the ppl/stuff around me

wow i spent 1 hour writing these , lol , aaa i nida sleep , gonna meet her later at 8.25am !!!!


- By Nerdy @ 11:37 PM

as i am playing games , i figure out something , maybe i will go out of my house 5 minutes earlier , lol so i can meet u for morning class , haha


oh ya sorry cause ya the trouble to go to lvl 3 IT blk , lol , tat 1 isnt sa office , yawn leh

recently met some problems wif my partner and project , hehe , i realli sux
dun wish to go into that subject , kinda lame , 7 weeks to go , this is quite scary cuz next week i will start on my coding , by this weekend must finish sequence diagram , haiz , i am juz scare to make connection to FTP server using java , its bad real bad

ok now , maybe i should tell u my unknown visitors , lol , i really like a girl , she is clever , all smiles , independent , romantic ? haaha , cuz she luvs to read comics and novels , this is my first time of luving some1 , i dunno why , all the relationship i had is juz those eh i dunno how to explain , its juz i am moved by their feelings lor , haiz

hard to explain , anyway , i dont wanna upload any photos , but u can see them on friendster , juz go search on my e-mail...

i hope i can be more natural around u cuz all the time i get nervous u know , lol
i guess i will know when ya ready , ur action will speak i think , cuz i can felt the difference. during week 1 - 2 , u would walk wif ur partner and my partner but week 3 onwards , we will always walk side by side , hehe

having skin problems doesnt stop me from luving u , i luv ur red cheeks ma , hehe , wanted to have a photo of u in my comp but u dun have =(

wait till i get myself a phone then i can take pictures of u le , haha
and when ur being there at sports hall , i can run without worries cuz in my heart i will say , if i stop and not run fast , i will lose face infront of u , haha cuz i realli sux in running XD

thx for ur concern , but friday i nv bike , today oso wont...thx


- By Nerdy @ 2:47 PM

i think applying some stuff to my hair is something i should do everyday , lol

sending u home , walking u will become my hobby XD

i guess i will still wait for u until ur ready for another relationship =)

tats the best thing i feel i can do now , hehe


i wanted to tell u i will wait for u
i wanted to ask u will u do the same

cause NS , lol , i witness quite a numeber of "bing bian"
means their lover chooses to leave the NS guy

will u wait for me......


- By Nerdy @ 8:30 PM

aaa , nv send her home today , lol , oh well , like i said dun wanna give her pressure ba , hehe

oh asked her whether wanna go watch "seven swords" but she say cannot , cuz she wanna go watch wif her family , haha

but hor maybe i am thinking too much , she still say a lot of reason why she dun wanna watch wif me , but normally if u reject a person , will u say so much reason >?

wait i think too much , lol , dunno leh......

oh well , nvm , lol , hope there is a movie which can make my heart move to spent the $8 to watch it ba

and i ask her if i can send her home everyday ? lol

she replied u decide lor

normally she would say anything ba

but i decide , lol , i dun like having to decide , haiz , but i guess in a relationship guys have to decide ba , in my past relationship always the girl decide , then i kinda like follow the flow

oh as i am toking , lol , my sec sch friend msg me , ask us for a gathering , fix the date and time at monday 7.30pm , lol , wonder how many ppl can make it

haiz , my mum away for 1 week , lol , muz water her plants again , omg
aa damm , i hafen do my coding , wtf , lol , muz faster do then later can play agmes XD

okok , haf fun always...


- By Nerdy @ 9:36 PM

b4 i sleep , i will blog , lol

our relationship is getting better le

i get to send her home these few days , give her morning calls 2 times , lol, cuz she realli work hard on her project and her partner cmi , lol

today presentation , lol , well if their com skill teacher were around , i think the teacher will die , some of them cant present at all , haiz


well sad to say her presentation didnt realli go well , haiz
lucky to say our project is the easiest among their projects , lol
cuz this auto update of databases tend to be more technical rather than to bio informatics

my supervisor told me this which sounded very truth , next time when u work in other domains , u muz be able to learn their domain and put ur knowledge into work , well something liek that , lol

eh i wish u good luck for ur project , maybe study sem , u , my partner , me , then 1 more person can become 1 team or maybe juz 3-person team , haha

i wanna work wif my partner , if she dont nag at me , i think my presentation oso gone case...thx ar

i wanted to bring some mentos to sch tml treat u eat but while i am playing games its all gone , lol , damm my graphic card , load so slow , haiz , so izzit the ram problem , yawn, load so slow = trying to find things to do = eat mentos XD

anyway i hope we can go school together , cuz i sux at waking up early laaa , haiz , if i can leave home at 7.45am , being able to meet u shouldnt be a problem , well i will try tml

hmm , wanna walk together to sch , am i too greedy ?
maybe i am bugging u , lol , go sch see my face , in lab see my face , lunch time see my face(smf) , going home smf

aiya think better not , u too nid some freedom i guess haha
u should be sleeping by now , oh yea , ur morning voice realli very funny , haha , its realli u juz wake up , hehe

wear formal realli very pretty leh , cant take my eyes off u , lol
hope my knee can recover soon cuz thursday got PE , sian , 3 more days to PE , lol


- By Nerdy @ 11:00 PM