this is a misunderstanding , u told me u a bit lian in the past , tats why i sort of agree , well u help me b4 ma , i did appreciate it

wei , since when i didnt help u , well i did try my best but i didnt complain leh

pls help other ppl and ask from help , be wat u used to be b4 knowing me and its realli ok u think u can onli treat me as normal friends , i juz wanna let u know how i feel , its ok if i dont get the ending i wanted

i wanna share wif all of u who happen to come here wat i dreamt this morning mostly to u

i dream of receiving ur sms forgiving me , we chatted the whole nite , u forgive me and we are back to the normal days . ate dinner and stuff , after tat i heard my phone's sms , i woke up and immediately picked it up and its not u


nowadays i cant stop dreaming , i no longer can differ dream from reality , i am like a souless stupid shit walking around thinking of the words u said to me

u juz sms-ed me u wanna sleep liao but my feeling again tell me u wanna avoid this , but i will realli keep my promise , i will not pester u anymore and tats wat u want , i will delete ur msn contact , phone number , all of it , cuz tats wat u want , but i juz cant delete my happy memories wif u , the happy sms , the promise to take u to dinner after i got my pay this month , the day i met u b4 exam , the phone call i made was teaching u OS calculation , the j2ee project , the things u said to me , the conversation of u wif my bfriend , all of it

oh and i promised u not to bluff u on anything , i saw the conversation between u and pui yan , pls dont scold her , i beg her to , i am sorry , and all the sufferings and how i hurt u will end , after i typed it all out in here , i notice 1 thing , even if i clear the misunderstanding , we will still not be the same , i think its ok i will stop , even if i call u , nothing will changed , haiz , why muz this happen , anyway i wanna tell u something

tat very day u smsed me i was very happy yet surprised...cuz i told u i dont wanna sms u anymore le n thought u were angry at me but u sms me meaning u think of me and not angry wif me anymore le , we chat only during working hours tat time , tat was on monday , wat i felt tat day but the day u saw the entry was already saturday , tat week , every nite after i leave the room , i will sms u and we chat until i got home , remember the when u see the word " ri " , add 1 line , wat will u think of , and the result is i am stubborn , after monday i felt we were like friends rather than the guy u sms to make time past faster. this is how i felt , i am still keeping the promise of not lying to u , oh i hafen told u the things pui yan told me the day we walked together back home , she told me u never hate any1 b4 the day u know her la and she said its a good thing she hate u , she oso said tat u told her if there is guys who like her , u will like consider , but if that guy is cmi then u will not even talk to him , its i think too much ba , the more i recall sadder i become , anyway dun hate pui yan ba cuz i keeping begging her so pls pls pls dont hate her , tats all she told me , she asked me to let u cooldown a bit but my stubborn haste juz wanna clear the misunderstanding , i know i say this before but let me say this again , i hope to clear the misunderstanding and become wat we used to be but deep down inside i know tis impossible , as it goes liek this , the scars tat are made cant be healed , i realli realli regret making that entry post , its all my mind-maps tat my brain is thinking u know , either this or that , after reading this post , if ur still angry means u realli hate me , i am a bastard a shit , crap...if ur reading this and felt sad , which my feeling told me u wont , we might have something for each other but its all broken , sorry had to let u read all this but if u dont want me to clear up the things , pls tell me u dont nid it and tell me by sms leave u alone , and i will respect tat , or u wanna cooldown first then we talk things out , pls tell me wat to do , and 1 more thing , u said i think i can onli treat u as normal friend , pls dont think , if u got no feeling for me pls tell me straight , its ok , i am already smileless , its ok realli but pls tell me yes or no , i hurt ur feeling le , its ok if u hurt mine , once again i am sorry i hurt ur feelings , i realli dont mean it , and all of these i typed , i realli didnt think of it much , its juz how i feel NOW , it will changed but the feeling to u will NEVER DIE , tat i promise and if u dont help other ppl or ask for help then i oso follow u , i dont see other mei mei and ba other mei mei and if other mei mei come look for me , i oso dont care them


sorry again for hurting u cuz pui yan said this is serious ingoring u like that...wo zhen de bu shi gu yi de , zhen de , qing yuan liang wo & ke neng de hua hui dao guo qu , zai jian


- By Nerdy @ 10:19 PM