people can be different , good looking girls engaged pretty fast , all thats left are trash for us , sometimes i wonder can i get a girl friend or would being alone suits me fine

sometimes i wonder wats the road infront of me or should i dig a new road for myself

wat happens after i die , would i lvie in japan( i hope ) or would i be raped by millions of mother fcker cuz i am so racist

japanese , singaporeans , wats the diff , hey hey , its damm big , as i am typing these , i felt a bit tired, disappointed and become to think back wat i tok swirlyeyes , well i can serious of saying " if theres a place in there , i will queue up for "japan". "

ssooo , pls kill me if u feel like illing some1 and do not fear the result of doing so. i hate suicide , cuz that kinda sux , its realli a waste to die b4 40 years old i think , after 40yrs , u should die ,if u die now , u can be a baby of year 2006 , so why not XD

i kinda hate the life i am in now , at home being raped by the voices of my ah ma.
the feeling of ur "own space" get invaded kind of thing
the way of speaking to my old secodnary school friends , they are the best
everyday in school , i sleep like a fcking log and copied homework for goodness sake in order to pass my "o" levels.
when i came to poly , i realli thought these 3 years will be a very happy 3 years for me but i was wrong , very wrong
ppl change due to the environment , they do
once u lived wif them , interact wif them , u will know their characteristic , some good , some bad
but the bad ones are all around me , makes me sick
friends around me in poly , many has big ambitions but i doubt many would make it , only some
i felt lonely in my class DIT0301 , i cant even joke wif them. all i can do is try not to look at them cuz when i look at them , they are not in human form , they are in some "hen" form , its scary , juz thinking of it made my hair stand
i dunno why i felt this way , most probably u too , its just that nobody bring it up , cuz ocne they do , everything is over , they would said , hey look we still nid to see each other for 1 eyar u know. but hey wats the big deal of 1 year , i dun like u , i dun interact wif u , simple

dunno why i am typing all these , i am confuse, the friends i made were all wrong
i too dun realli dare to say it out cuz yea its 1 year, saying it out doesnt help anyway. but if i dun say it out, its like i am wearing a fake mask everyday, but since we are not even toking to each other , means i am not wearing a fake mask then

most of my friends are clever , i tink i should go to jc to befriend wif those nerds
ok i am thinking too far , always thinking of the past, i wanna be a tour guide, i hope thats possible at least it suits me. i juz hope everything goes well


- By Nerdy @ 8:00 PM